I am no artist. If I were to try to paint this sunset, I would leave out so many colors. This sunset is filled with yellows, pinks, purples and so much more. There are intensities in light and in shadow. I would miss so much. I now feel that education can be a little like this sunset. There is so much to learn. There are so many degrees of enlightenment. I am beginning to feel like I can see more of the colors.
I am so fortunate that before we enrolled in a virtual school, I had written my own lesson plans and taught these lessons to children before. I say this because I know that my experience is very different than someone else's might be. I am truly grateful that so much thought was put into the K12 curriculum and guidelines. I am able to appreciate how much went into making this as thorough as possible for as many students as possible. It really does seem to allow my children so much more of an opportunity to learn.
As I write this, I am aware of how much things have changed for our family. I don't know if I can put into words how grateful I am for these changes, but I will try.
First, I was the parent who volunteered at school. I was aware of my children's friends, activities and daily grades. I was lucky. At the end of each day, I would ask them about the most interesting thing they had learned. It gave us an opportunity to talk. It gave me an opportunity to see things from their perspective. I have always been very interested in how they perceive the world around them.
Second, I was afraid. I was afraid that my children would resent me for this choice. I was afraid I would grow frustrated with them. I was afraid that spending so much time with them would begin to feel like a tremendous burden. I do not have a lot of outings away from my work and my children, partially from my own choice, and partially due to our specific circumstances. I was afraid that I would need to start a closet drinking habit to survive and stay motivated.
I really underestimated one very important thing. Children really do like their parents. It sounds silly, doesn't it? I have been in the throws of prepubescent sarcasm and tantrums for a while, and I had forgotten this. No matter how odd, or how strange, or how out of fashion, children really do admire their parents first.
Fear is a pretty powerful motivator. It keeps us from standing like idiots waiting to be eaten by the bear, and it keeps us searching for more improvements. I was afraid. I was afraid that the curriculum would not be enough, so I researched many options to add to our weekly lessons. I was afraid that my children might become less outgoing, or less confident, so I found many things for them to be involved in.
Educating my children at home has been a tremendous blessing. My children have told me more and more about themselves and their likes and dislikes. We have found a lot of wonderful resources that we may not have ever known about if it were not for our fears. Just today, we attended a virtual field trip about the US Constitution through history.org. Constitution Day was last week, but viewing the field trip really helped the children understand their history assignments better. (It also made it more interesting.)
I have been able to take ownership of my children's education. Yes, I held them accountable for assignments and grades when they were in a brick and mortar school, but this is different. If they miss the answers on a test, even if they have "mastered" the material as far as the scores go, I have the opportunity to review the missed questions right then. They can retake the test if they want to, but more importantly, the understand the material. With my younger child, I have the ability to see where I may not have explained the material well. (Perhaps I should not have skipped that particular explanation.) I know that I am not the teacher, I did not create the material, the tests or the lessons, but I know I am responsible for ensuring that they understand it.
We do have a variety of extra projects at this very moment.
I found a wonderful book of poems with teacher lesson plans to accompany it and both girls are doing one of those lessons each week and then they discuss them with each other. (We found this summer that they really enjoyed book discussion groups.) This will be great practice for when they are participating in book discussion groups for school this year.
We also have several science projects at this time. The children are growing different plants, one of which is something called a 'sensitive plant' to learn more about which plants require more water, light, etc. We have a book of body parts to color in and complete worksheets about also. They are then able to cut out the body parts and assemble them on poster board. My youngest child is assembling an insect collection while the oldest child is creating a detailed sketchbook on her microscope slides.
We always have some sort of art or craft project to do also. We are each interested in different things, so there is always a variety. It is fun to create gifts for others, or new things for our home.
All in all, we have the freedom to be together. It is so wonderful to hear my children say that they enjoy talking to me. They enjoy hearing me explain things. It has brought us closer and sometimes I get a little tear in my eye when they tell me how much they love this new school.
We are not like some families who left the brick and mortar schools out of disgust or anger. We loved our previous school. My children were given a fantastic foundation and own some of the responsibility for them being accelerated students. It was time to make a change. That school did not have a place for them this year so we had to search for the best option. I am so grateful that I took a second look at the virtual education option. Maybe I cannot paint that sunset, but I can see so many more of the colors than I could before.